I was struck by a recent episode on one of my favorite talk shows... Dr. Phil .. This is very sad to say the least .. but in this recent episode about a pretty abusive Mother that originally showed up on an earlier episode with anger issues and had two Daughters that were living around these issues .. She then returns for this new episode .. one Daughter had really turned her life around and is growing in a positive direction  and is doing awesome and the other is the more difficult.  She had no intentions of growing any further in a positive direction .. and her Mother decided to give her choices .. of college, job or volunteer ... somewhere to help others .. This Daughter .. decided on none of these ... instead decided to spend her life on the streets...panhandling ..  basically homeless .. But what bothered me the most .. was that she blamed her mother for HER DECISION .. Yes, her Mother wasn't right in her earlier behavior ... but apparently is now progressing on a better path .. She was given a choice .. which a lot of us just we're given that luxury .. As a Mother as I see it .. these kids these days seem to grow up with a strong entitlement that the world owes them something .. that they don't really need an education or a job .. or any kind of work ethic.. I'm seeing quite a lot of that lately .. I have a dear friend whose Daughter who has just recently been arrested this past week and now has been brought up on murder charges amongst other serious charges.  She is described as a "drifter" in the exact same area as the Daughter of the woman on Dr. Phil.. This area is described as a very high area for transients .. or drifters.  This young 18 year old woman .. barely a woman .. pretty much still a child herself .. has given her family problems from a very young age riddled with drug abuse, delinquency ... and as they say.. just was always hanging out with the "wrong crowd." It was a pretty troubled home... This is just so horribly sad .. as I know no one is perfect and I know for a fact that her Mother has always tried to do the right thing ... but it takes both parents ... Children don't seem to be brought up in a loving nurturing home and seem to act out in these serious ways... drugs, running away... etc.  and seems to be searching for something missing in her life.. I saw this in my own family where my own parents never really "loved"each other just merely existing with one another.. Both had their own holes in their lives to repair especially my mother ... she was never happy .. They always doted on my brother giving him everything possible.  However, in his search to be happy I believe he made his own choice to medicate his life ... numbing himself with alcohol.. then pot .. and to this day he's a 30 year crack addict.. My parents enabled him as they thought they were HELPING HIM.. but in actuality, it made THEM feel better rather than doing what was best for him.... thus they are now both dead and he is still searching and abusing making excuses .. I truly believe there has been a serious breakdown in our family structure and values... where couples are having children without planning, getting married for the wrong reasons and not really taking marriage and what it stands for seriously and respecting and treating the constitution of marriage as God intended and created it to be.  Not being serious as a parent and realizing that you are completely and totally responsible for a "life".  Teaching them right from wrong and getting caught up in their own problems without realizing how much their actions as parents and adults really affect our children... Although I don't see this first young woman who was on the show has gotten into drugs .. I can only pray for her future that she may come to her senses and rethink her decision to be on the streets... its very very sad.  I pray for this family and families out there that have lost their way... and are suffering each and everyday... 

Aloha & A Hui Hou ... 

  

A New Gameplan..!!!!!!

A new year ... of fresh POSITIVE new beginings!!!!! Out with the old and in with the new!!!   Its been a little bit since my last post... last year ended quite depressing.. to say the least with the loss of many loved ones and many personal and family struggles.  I returned in a way to my strong faith in God... and He was the only one that got me through.  So I am excited and very glad for positive"new beginnings" for our New Year 2011!! 

I'm starting a new book .. I know again.. you say.. but I really do love books...Suzanne Somers is AWESOME.. and I have read most of her books or are in the midst of them.   I am surrounded by my books always.. and I always have at least three or four things to read with me at all times... People think I'm nuts with all the stuff I bring with me all the time.. but I guess its just a habit.. of always having something to do at all times... 

Creativity, reading and writing... are my passions... and it seems that there is never enough time to do these things... so this year .. I am going to MAKE TIME.. !!!  I am also beginning to take some online courses.. in memory of my years in college.. I LOVE LEARNING.. and saturating my mind in new things.. 

We are also in the "great search" for a new furry addition to our family... and this will then lead into a major and much needed exercise change for me..!!  I can't wait!!!

So POSITIVE POWER... !! and POSITIVE PRAYERS, THOUGHTS AND DREAMS FOR THE FUTURE...!!!

Aloha & A Hui Hou!!!

I'm sitting here wondering........

I'm sitting here 
wondering... how did I get to this spot... what were all the circumstances that led up to this point in our lives.... you always try to do the right thing.. say the 
right thing,   eat the right way, try to be            understanding, try to be a good listener, try to be .....  I ALWAYS put others first.. and myself last.. but at this time.... it doesn't seem to be helping much... I've been doing ALOT of praying these days... I know that I don't trust Him enough out of fear of the unknown... but trust and faith... is just that TRUST AND FAITH... It even states on our money.... 


IN GOD WE TRUST.... but do we REALLY...??? Do we REALLY TRUST????  It is very difficult to trust, sometimes... but we MUST... I know through the ups and downs in my life,  I really have trusted and prayed to God.. and the real trusting thing is to pray HIS WILL not your own... Wow..!!!  Yes we must understand that it is HIS Will be done.. He knows what our desires are.. and really what is best for us... but sometimes the difference between what He thinks and what WE think is best... seems quite a bit different.... 
"The Art of being a Mom" ... is just that ... quite an art....and it requires alot of trust ... in ourselves as the Wife, Mother and Mom.. friend.. sister.. whatever... it is a truly rewarding, difficult, exciting exhausting, once in a lifetime experience.  But once you really do experience it.. I promise you will never regret it..

I've now spent my day... with my little boy "Thunder"... it was a "slow" day... even working out, cleaning out things ... cleaning out the frig...gathering the trash..... chasing cats.. & geckos.. it was just a "slow" day... I'm praying God's will for this beloved, cherished little boy... I want his little body healed... and back to his fiesty old self.... I LOVE MY LITTLE BOY..... YOU'RE THE BEST!!!


Aloha & A Hui Hou!!!!!!!!

New discoveries.....

I have discovered ... but have always been interested in alternative medicine... but more importantly Chinese medicine... and becoming an herbalist..!! In these past days I have come to do some research... and have become very interested.  I started this research because our beloved Cocker Spaniel.. my boy "Thunder" has had a relapse... and had become extremely weak .. and lethargic.. the vet, who is an excellent vet practicing Western medicine said there was basically nothing more we could do.  I knew in my heart that .. that was what he was going to tell me... and I really want this special furry friend and family member

to have a wonderful life... soooooo with much prayer and positive thought...I decided to begin my research.. to see what else there was, alternatively to do for him.  I found out from friends and research.. that there is a Chinese herb called "yunnan baiyao" 

that helps in stopping internal bleeding in humans ... and in animals.  It comes in a capsule and/or powder form.  I was told to mix it with liquid, like chicken broth and give him an ounce every hour until he seemed to perk up..... I did just that.. every single hour from yesterday afternoon till this morning.... gave him a bit.. and this morning... although not completely and totally perky... Thunder is seeming to show definite signs of improvement!!!!  This stuff really smells weird.. and I can't imagine mixed with the chicken broth... that it would taste much better... but it is seeming to make a small but definite difference... !!!  I was very encouraged by this ... and am going to continue to give him this for a bit longer... not every hour now.. but a little at a time and hope and pray.. that our boy.. will continue with this positive progress.


So at this point... after speaking with this local herbalist... and she gave me no guarantees.. but at least I know I am trying everything possible...!!  I am actually now going to make an appointment for myself.. to see if she will be able to regulate these lovely hormones... and help me get back ... to my old normal condition and weight.... She seemed very encouraging and positive that she would be able to help me... with these types of herbs.. and also acupuncture ... which I am also very interested in.... 


I know this situation .. could easily turn around... but I am continuing to pray and keep my strong faith in God.. to help our beloved friend... 


Aloha & A Hui Hou!!!

What does it take...???

Okay people ... what does it take... ???  What does it take ... to get inspired .. to be enthusiastic... to be excited???  I know I'm a really creative person... but I really do hate these ruts I get it ... with lots of stuff in my life... exercise... dieting... staying in shape... writing... creating... 

So I decided to watch Sex in the City 2 for inspiration...!!  Although Carrie is just a character... but I really do like what she does... her writing career... her crazy fashions... and ideas...  

I'm waiting patiently for the inspiration to hit me... 

I have at least a half a dozen portraits I need to work on ... some more writing & blogging that I haven't been able to keep up with my promise to myself to keep up with this blogging habit... some creative sewing ... and for some reason... its just not hitting me... and I'm not liking it very much... 

Hopefully ... sometime soon... Until next time .. A Hui Ho!!

"How is it possible...????

I was just thinking ... "How is it possible... that we have let our lives be run by the latest electronic gadgets....

It seems to me that our children are loosing their handle on being self sufficient.. in the old fashioned way. Through this age of electronic gadgets like computers, internet, cellphones, blackberries, electronic games for fitness, fashion designing and the like and with tons of entertainment websites... we've let our lives and our children's lives be run by the world's latest gizmo!! Don't get me wrong ... I love my Apple laptop and IPhone... and at one point when my IPhone was on the fritz... I did reach a panic mode, thought my life was going to end.. cause I immediately blanked out and couldnt remember one phone number... but when I finally dried it off enough and prayed very deeply, and begged God... in about three days it was back to normal and my life was back on track.... Amazing and scary at the same time. But when you think about it ... how ridiculous is this..!!! Its just a small electronic organizer, phone, computer with email capabilities, weather checker, stock market results, address book, address and phone number locator, calendar/datebook, ipod, music identifier, work out buddy, calorie counter, pedometer, and it even can tell you within specified distances where the closest restroom is??? incidently, this is one I use alot... how much could I really rely on this thing!!! Now with the newest model coming out.. it has a compass, video player, a special locator if you happen to loose it, an upgraded camera, and even voice control for your phone and music as well!! It's no wonder our lives are run by these gadgets! They pretty much do EVERYTHING we're supposed to be doing... but with more speed and much more accuracy ..!! But the fact still remains, what happens if we loose our cherished gadget or worse, if it happens to fail us or our battery just dies..??? We are then forced to actually go back to manual mode... !!! OMG!! Can we deal with this?? How horrible can life be to us!!! We will actually have to remember how to add, subtract and even multiply all by ourselves!! Can you just imagine!!! Yes, we will have to rely on our own knowledge and what we've actually learned in school and what we've actually learned through life's experiences or even what we actually learned from our parents growing up. So then we begin to realize that everyday we are learning and gathering information. Thus, I believe as parents in this new electronic generation that as we update our data banks and learn everything we need to know about these wonderful little handy dandy little contraptions that are slowly taking over our lives... that it would nice if we could take a little time.. not being plugged into anything and get back to enjoying the simple things in life. Take some time to learn about something fun, share your thoughts about you're reading or just maybe go step by step and make some old fashioned cupcakes... decorated with different colored sprinkles and some really yummy chocolate icing!!! I truly believe if we all take and make this special time with our kids... these will be the special memories that we will all cherish for years to come!!

In closing... I still love my Apple laptop, and absolutely could not live without my IPhone.. but when these batteries wear out... and we keep replacing them... we can never replace the special memories just making cupcakes!! Love you Kenz!! Its time to head to bed... until tomorrow A Hui Ho!!