A Very Sloww death....

Not sure where to start... all I know is that I have no sympathy for someone that doesnt want to help themself..  I never realized .. how much I really had things together... or why I was soo resentful for years ... till I saw him laying in his bed .. not even being able to keep his eyes open... but still denying... he doesn't have a problem at all.  Sooo very sad and really pathetic.  To be honest, I never really felt close to the guy.... he was always so arrogant and always acted like he knew everything.  

It made me not like him even more... with each and every event ... and how he always seem to want more but just was never able to accept ... that he could have really had more.. if ONLY HE WOULD HAVE GONE THROUGH THE STEPS....

I just don't get it!!!  

How can someone SOO SMART be soooo STUPID!!  

I just keep thinking "Life is too short.. Wake the F up!!"

Through the years ... I've been always called on to "Call the hospitals, call the jails.. he's missing again!!"  I really hated that but more importantly really didnt understand his actions..Addictions are what they are ... ADDICTIONS! 

Addiction is the continued use of a mood altering substance or behavior despite adverse consequences, or a neurological impairment leading to such behaviors ...

We all have addictions of some type.  Whether its smoking, drinking, eating or my vice is shopping.. 

Its our way of dealing with some type of an emotional trigger... stress or just dealing with the problems in life.  Addiction is a weakness.. of NOT being able to deal with life!

It surely is a shame seeing him waste his life on each and every  

"binge" event and seeing his body and

 mind deteriorate.. was just plain sad. 

 I really really dont get it!!

Such a very sad state of affairs...

  

CRACK..

Crack cocaine is the freebase form of cocaine that can be smoked. It may also be termed rock, work,^[1] hard, iron, cavvy, base, or just crack; it is said to be the most addictive form of cocaine,^[2] although this has been contested. Crack rocks offer a short but intense high to smokers.^[3][4] Crack appeared primarily in impoverished inner-city neighborhoods in New York, Los Angeles, and Miami in late 1984 and 1985.

What a horrible existence.. but it

continues and continues.. because he thinks he has this thing licked cause he can clean up and keep everybody snowed.. but as I see it... but there might not be a next time.. 

Waiting, waiting and waiting... just STUPID.... just STUPID... 

I'm really not understanding this need to ALTER YOUR MIND.. to be COMPLETELY OUT OF CONTROL.. what is the true attraction of this horrible life changing and altering existence. What is the REAL attraction... what is it? 

This is really about a way that a person who is in no different position than the rest of us... as far as just trying to make ends meet in a horrible economy.. but he choses to bandaid.. or medicate the situation trying to forget or just not plain deal with life ...

I've lived through this life.. thinking that I may have missed out.. and should have pursued a "real" career.. or business.. but when it comes right down to it .. I'm the lucky one.. I know where my heart is .. I have strong passions that are reached everyday.. I grow in my God given talents everyday

... I might not be rich in the bank, fancy job, a luxury home.. but I have my very strong FAITH... and a loving Husband and Daughter.. and our Herbert.. and God as the head of my life..

Aloha & A Hui Hou

Timing.....

Timing .... is EVERYTHING... as they say... 

I have just been able to actually sit down and realize.. I guess more TAKE NOTICE, of how things just "seem to fall in place."  I am a totally "ROUTINE" person as I have gotten older.. as when things change my memory doesnt seem to check in soo lately its just been crazy when you're used to following a certain routine... and something changes.  I tend get frustrated... but I've learned through these last few days... that I have been traveling .. Ive traveled alone.  This was a bit scary I must admit....  but this time it was totally planned well.  Then almost missing my last of five flights... and to run ... taking a train, two escalators, and an elevator.. but made it.  If I would have missed it ... I wouldnt have felt that bad.. as I was traveling alone.. and just could have taken the next flight and upon arriving ... there was more things to handle than I really cared to.... but like I said... it was good I was alone.  

I guess what my revelation is ... that no matter what WE think or how WE think things should go... and try to push for it .. if things dont seem to happen that way.. instead of getting all frustrated and upset.. we have to just roll with things ... and understand the God has a plan..  and things do happen for a reason.. 

Enjoy each day and what it brings... be open to God's plans and listen.... 

A Hui Hou!!! 

What has this world come to??

Growing up.. I never really paid much attention to "current events."  My Father, in his joking way .. would quiz me .. "Hey, who is the President of the United States?"  I was lucky I got that right! As I sit here watching CNN.. I'm almost sorry and very saddened in a way, that I finally started to pay attention.  

I really dont get people these days.. The Boston Bombings to now these poor women being kidnapped for a decade!!!  We have horrible storms wiping out entire towns and killing innocent families and children.   The latest video I've watched .. the brutal killing in London and then video taping their message as to why??  This is just absolutely, ultimately CRAZY to say the least..    I understand that there are people saying that the media, whichever station or news programing you're watching, tends to "play up" or sensationalize the news to make it seem even more attractive.. to the viewer but REALLY??? these are peoples REAL lives and REAL life circumstances..!!!  Its very sad to me that some of the media play up stories and REAL LIFE situations like they're the latest novel needing publicity.  Thats pretty SICK if you ask me.  

I think one of the worst stories now that people are following is the "Jodi Arias Show".... REALLY???  She's trying to sell t-shirts?? wants to start a book club??? in jail?? Does she think its going to be a social event??  ARE YOU REALLY KIDDING ME??? I dont think death is enough punishment for her.. she should be in solitary for the rest of her life.. NO ATTENTION .. that would be her punishment.. Such a horrific crime.. could never be construed as "self defense".. very very sad.  All of this is pretty damn sad.. if you ask me.  I really dont know what this world has come to.... I'm just glad I have my faith and I know where I'm going in the end.. 

Just keep you faith strong.. and only look ahead... Until next time..

A Hui Hou... 

"Wow, things that matter"

"Things that Matter".... 

I just can't wait to read this book!  As I listen to this interview .. on one of my most favorite shows Super Soul Sunday I am truly amazing at this man's experience of his time enduring one of the most greatest natural disasters of our time, I am completely impressed and touched by his deep reflection, intuition, perception of things, soul and design.

Its kind of sad in a way.. to really come to a complete understanding of things only after a life threatening experience.  But God has the plan for all of us ... I truly believe this.. so take each day as a REAL treasure... cherish it, learn from it, love it.... be the person God wants you to be...

Aloha 
A Hui Hou... 

Wow, people sure dont act or treat you the way you think they will!!!

I've had many friends and acquaintances through the years... but it never ceases to amaze me how this world is sooo full of sooooo many different kinds of people...  I am the kind of person that will pretty much do ANYTHING.. I possibly can for someone.  To help, listen, explain.. have a shoulder for them to cry on.. sympathize and ONLY if asked would I give any type of advice..  

BUT, advice is a tricky thing... and I guess MY type of advice is more sympathizing ... somehow I feel that I know myself, that I feel better if someone can tell me that they have been through the same event.   I feel more human, not so isolated.. and that they can really relate to this situation I am going through.  I try to compassionately listen and put myself in the other person's shoes.. 

All in all though... as far as I can tell through the years I've been alive... no matter how you cut it ... you just can't predict, judge or REALLY know what each other is going through on the "inside"... all we can really go by is what is presented on the outside.. So all we can do is our BEST to be happy with what we have and what God has blessed EACH and EVERYONE of us with... 

Because whether we know it or not we are ALLL BLESSED... 

Untill we meet again... 

Aloha & A Hui Hou...

I promise......

Happy New Year!!! Happy 2013!!!  
Wow... seems like these years seem go soooooo quickly!! 

Dont ya just love the New Year... full of NEW and exciting beginnings... positivity, creativity, love, courage and ENCOURAGEMENT... !! There are so many New Years changes, commitments and RESOLUTIONS .. that come and go with nothing being done.  I know this because.. I am probably the biggest offender I know!! LOL!! Even this year.. these very past days.. and even starting for me NEW YEARS DAY!!  I'm really not sure what makes us do this.  Some say they are stuck in a rut or just plain really dont want it enough!  Personally, not wanting "it" enough is probably the most accurate but the hardest to accept.  Guess we just have to do like NIKE.... "Just Do it!!"

A Hui Hou!!

I'm TOTALLY amazed...

I am TOTALLY amazed at people... these days... !!  I lived in South Florida for years... and knew that it was a "melting pot" as such ... for all different kinds of people... mostly because of the weather... but living HERE in Hawaii.. is a 100 times more magnified!!! The weather here is completely amazingly consistently tropical in every sense.. but to live here you MUST come with a plan.. FOR SURE.. The cost of living is much more here.. but more importantly you find all different levels of living here..  There are people working 2 and three jobs to make ends meet and there are people who have huge magnificent homes that they probably dont see but two or three times a year...!!!  CRAZY life we lead...

But the main thing I think I've learned in these past years.. is "Happiness comes from the inside and through a very strong faith in God!!! I see people all the time.. with all the wealth, material things, homes all over the country, expensive cars, and every gadget there is.. but when I look in their eyes.. all I see is sadness.  They're lost.  Drowning in the sorrow of "stuff!" God gives us things everyday to show us and guide us.... He wants us to enjoy our lives... live each day in the moment ....... Past is Past.. the PRESENT IS NOW!!! 
Be thankful for what you have right this moment .. cause money and stuff is just that money and stuff..!!  Remember to cherish the moments.. and put out there what you want to receive... 

Aloha & A Hui Hou!!