Well here I am .... not being consistent ...AGAIN.. man... How in the world... am I supposed start a REAL column or blog.. and get REAL readers... !!! Consistency.. 

is soo important through EVERYTHING and no matter what part of life you're going through.. I just have no idea why its soo difficult .. to BEE CONSISTENT.... but like I said.. we all need to "Never Give Up!!" So I'm gonna keep pushin myself.. and I know I can get this done.. 

Ok till next time... Aloha .. & A Hui Hou!!!

I just don't get it.....

I really just don't get it.. we see it everywhere.. in the news.. celebrities.. singers.. actors ... athletes.. kids.. teenagers.. grown people.. adults.. FAMILY.. WHY.. WHY DO THEY CHOSE TO DO DRUGS????? Are these people just not satisfied with their lives???  What exactly are they looking for???  

 I just dont get it!!!

Its always in the news.. actors overdosing.. celebrities.. young singers.. spending their monies on pot.. crack.. endless monies on this stuff.. and they end up wasting all their monies.. making a bad name for themselves.. not dealing with reality.. and dead on the floor in some hotel somewhere.. wasted.. and DEAD!!! One right after the other..  How do these supposedly smart,  intelligent, talented, well to do people .. get addicted and waste their lives?? Are they that unhappy?? unfulfilled?? bored.. people always looking for more... I guess...... even family members.... continuing to chose drugs .. 

Do these people just have no common sense?? They continue to torture their friends family with binges, worry, anxiety, stress and even death... 
I just don't really understand the attraction.. to continue to chose these awful life changing addictions.. even after these intelligent, strong, talented people see that they are destroying themselves, friends and family .. they continue... to give in to these drugs.. after seeing friends and my own brother destroy himself and our family.. I will NEVER ... NEVER be apart of or enable a drug abuser.. 

God truly gave these people a brain.. to use.. and NOT to ABUSE... 

I don't know... 

It's just what I think.... 

Aloha & A Hui Hou!!!

Well another year ... is slowly, for some, coming to a close..  New Years resolutions contemplated, thought through and being made.. Lots of lessons learned, positive and negative situations have come and gone.. Peoples paths cross.. and new friendships and relationships form new bonds, make commitments and some chose to part ways.. We all hope to learn from the negative .. and implement the positive.. 

Each day we are given a new start.. and as the new year begins.. we really can start new.. almost like a clean slate.. but now we have gained more knowledge, wisdom and insight.. that will hopefully direct us for our future ..  I pray everyday for guidance and direction... to make the best choices, be a good role model of a Woman, Wife and Mother.. as in the past ..I have always fell short .. 

I have learned through recent years that if I don't take care of myself.. then I wont be any good for anyone else.. so THIS YEAR 2014... I plan on workin on ME.. "Creating my life from the inside out.." I'm planning on being the BEST I can be.. 

As I know God has given us all a purpose.. 

And I plan on finding mine.. 

"Its just what I think..."

Aloha & A Hui Hou!!! Hau'oli Makahiki Hou!!!

After having a pretty trying summer ... and dealing with people who really cant see the forest for the trees ... literally and don't even make an attempt to correct enabling habits.. I have adopted this very "hit home" statement ...

"Let go of those who bring you down and surround yourself with those who bring out the best in you!"  

We must always try to be in a POSITIVE, encouraging environment.. people and circumstances that build up and always look at the bright side of things.. 

ENOUGH said.....


Aloha & A Hui Hou... 

A Catfish...... really.. 

I have a very difficult time... understanding someone, anyone... that could think sooo little of themselves.. and to be sooooo self centered and selfish.... to get caught up in so called "falling in love" with someone ... sight unseen... not actually meeting someone.. LET ALONE SENDING MONEY ... to these people....!!!!   ARE THESE WOMEN ACTUALLLY THAT COMPLETELY DESPERATE!!!  ... I DONT GET IT!!!  

After watching a current Dr. Phil show.. where they had a woman with older children who are married and had families of their own... which therefore ... given this woman precious Grandchildren... it totally made my skin crawl... to see this woman on stupid dating sites, texting boyfriends... TOTALLY IGNORING HER GRANDCHILDREN... and FOCUSING JUST ON HERSELF...

 It was very sad to see and to hear one of her sons.. said "She is acting like a teenager in heat!" Soooooo completely embarrassing and disgraceful... These women don't even deserve Grandchildren... !!!!  There are soooooo many older women out there like this ... that can't even see the forest for the trees... and ALL THEY SEE IS THEMSELVES... !  I dont at all one bit feel sorry, sympathetic.. or feel for these women.. its such a sad state of affairs ... that I cannot be around any of that.. as I have completely removed any and all negativity from my life.. and will continue to surround myself with only POSITIVE PEOPLE, SITUATIONS... AND THOUGHTS... 

As I recommend all of you ... to do the same.. in your lives.. 

It is the best ... advice .. I can offer everyone I meet and know... be THANKFUL.. for all things... and surround yourself with POSITIVE!!!

ALOHA & A HUI HOU!!!

A Very Sloww death....

Not sure where to start... all I know is that I have no sympathy for someone that doesnt want to help themself..  I never realized .. how much I really had things together... or why I was soo resentful for years ... till I saw him laying in his bed .. not even being able to keep his eyes open... but still denying... he doesn't have a problem at all.  Sooo very sad and really pathetic.  To be honest, I never really felt close to the guy.... he was always so arrogant and always acted like he knew everything.  

It made me not like him even more... with each and every event ... and how he always seem to want more but just was never able to accept ... that he could have really had more.. if ONLY HE WOULD HAVE GONE THROUGH THE STEPS....

I just don't get it!!!  

How can someone SOO SMART be soooo STUPID!!  

I just keep thinking "Life is too short.. Wake the F up!!"

Through the years ... I've been always called on to "Call the hospitals, call the jails.. he's missing again!!"  I really hated that but more importantly really didnt understand his actions..Addictions are what they are ... ADDICTIONS! 

Addiction is the continued use of a mood altering substance or behavior despite adverse consequences, or a neurological impairment leading to such behaviors ...

We all have addictions of some type.  Whether its smoking, drinking, eating or my vice is shopping.. 

Its our way of dealing with some type of an emotional trigger... stress or just dealing with the problems in life.  Addiction is a weakness.. of NOT being able to deal with life!

It surely is a shame seeing him waste his life on each and every  

"binge" event and seeing his body and

 mind deteriorate.. was just plain sad. 

 I really really dont get it!!

Such a very sad state of affairs...

  

CRACK..

Crack cocaine is the freebase form of cocaine that can be smoked. It may also be termed rock, work,^[1] hard, iron, cavvy, base, or just crack; it is said to be the most addictive form of cocaine,^[2] although this has been contested. Crack rocks offer a short but intense high to smokers.^[3][4] Crack appeared primarily in impoverished inner-city neighborhoods in New York, Los Angeles, and Miami in late 1984 and 1985.

What a horrible existence.. but it

continues and continues.. because he thinks he has this thing licked cause he can clean up and keep everybody snowed.. but as I see it... but there might not be a next time.. 

Waiting, waiting and waiting... just STUPID.... just STUPID... 

I'm really not understanding this need to ALTER YOUR MIND.. to be COMPLETELY OUT OF CONTROL.. what is the true attraction of this horrible life changing and altering existence. What is the REAL attraction... what is it? 

This is really about a way that a person who is in no different position than the rest of us... as far as just trying to make ends meet in a horrible economy.. but he choses to bandaid.. or medicate the situation trying to forget or just not plain deal with life ...

I've lived through this life.. thinking that I may have missed out.. and should have pursued a "real" career.. or business.. but when it comes right down to it .. I'm the lucky one.. I know where my heart is .. I have strong passions that are reached everyday.. I grow in my God given talents everyday

... I might not be rich in the bank, fancy job, a luxury home.. but I have my very strong FAITH... and a loving Husband and Daughter.. and our Herbert.. and God as the head of my life..

Aloha & A Hui Hou

Timing.....

Timing .... is EVERYTHING... as they say... 

I have just been able to actually sit down and realize.. I guess more TAKE NOTICE, of how things just "seem to fall in place."  I am a totally "ROUTINE" person as I have gotten older.. as when things change my memory doesnt seem to check in soo lately its just been crazy when you're used to following a certain routine... and something changes.  I tend get frustrated... but I've learned through these last few days... that I have been traveling .. Ive traveled alone.  This was a bit scary I must admit....  but this time it was totally planned well.  Then almost missing my last of five flights... and to run ... taking a train, two escalators, and an elevator.. but made it.  If I would have missed it ... I wouldnt have felt that bad.. as I was traveling alone.. and just could have taken the next flight and upon arriving ... there was more things to handle than I really cared to.... but like I said... it was good I was alone.  

I guess what my revelation is ... that no matter what WE think or how WE think things should go... and try to push for it .. if things dont seem to happen that way.. instead of getting all frustrated and upset.. we have to just roll with things ... and understand the God has a plan..  and things do happen for a reason.. 

Enjoy each day and what it brings... be open to God's plans and listen.... 

A Hui Hou!!!