I'm sitting here wondering........

I'm sitting here 
wondering... how did I get to this spot... what were all the circumstances that led up to this point in our lives.... you always try to do the right thing.. say the 
right thing,   eat the right way, try to be            understanding, try to be a good listener, try to be .....  I ALWAYS put others first.. and myself last.. but at this time.... it doesn't seem to be helping much... I've been doing ALOT of praying these days... I know that I don't trust Him enough out of fear of the unknown... but trust and faith... is just that TRUST AND FAITH... It even states on our money.... 


IN GOD WE TRUST.... but do we REALLY...??? Do we REALLY TRUST????  It is very difficult to trust, sometimes... but we MUST... I know through the ups and downs in my life,  I really have trusted and prayed to God.. and the real trusting thing is to pray HIS WILL not your own... Wow..!!!  Yes we must understand that it is HIS Will be done.. He knows what our desires are.. and really what is best for us... but sometimes the difference between what He thinks and what WE think is best... seems quite a bit different.... 
"The Art of being a Mom" ... is just that ... quite an art....and it requires alot of trust ... in ourselves as the Wife, Mother and Mom.. friend.. sister.. whatever... it is a truly rewarding, difficult, exciting exhausting, once in a lifetime experience.  But once you really do experience it.. I promise you will never regret it..

I've now spent my day... with my little boy "Thunder"... it was a "slow" day... even working out, cleaning out things ... cleaning out the frig...gathering the trash..... chasing cats.. & geckos.. it was just a "slow" day... I'm praying God's will for this beloved, cherished little boy... I want his little body healed... and back to his fiesty old self.... I LOVE MY LITTLE BOY..... YOU'RE THE BEST!!!


Aloha & A Hui Hou!!!!!!!!

My Eat, Pray, Love

Okay guys.. I'm about to watch Eat, Pray, Love.  A totally enjoyed reading and also listening to the audio version of this New York Best Seller.  I have heard mixed reviews of this movie.. and it seems even from my own experience.. that when I read a book and THEN see the movie... I tend to be a bit disappointed. 
 

If you are familiar with this story .. its basically a story of a women pretty much trying to find herself traveling through three countries after a bitter divorce.  I find it sad that this women had to go through such a life changing event .... to then go through yet another life changing experience.  But, I guess when you really sit down and think about it .. everything in life.. is "life changing".  But then again... everything in life ........ is changing.!!

Sometimes, I feel like I'm going through so many "changes" in my life.  (see http:www.artfulmamasmenapausalmadness.blogspot.com) But then again... the only thing in life that stays the same .. is CHANGE.  As much as I hate that statement it remains, still,  very true.  As one of my favorite singers states in one of my most favorite songs..
"Can I handle the seasons in my life......." 


 

I guess my Eat, Pray, Love... is praying that I can do just that, handle the seasons of my life.  I have truly gotten back to prayer in my life and I do feel much more secure.  I've always had a very strong faith in God... just seem to stray away and get distracted with life's circumstances. 

I found it very difficult at first.. to pray His will.. not mine.. but I finally came to terms with that.  I have finally let go of my own or at least, most of my own desires and trust God to be in control.  

Well, I finally finished the movie... and it was quite disappointing to say the least...just goes to show you that our imaginations are probably much more powerful that even Hollywood...!!  Its all good though.. it was nice to relax and watch the movie in peace... 

Didn't want to put a damper on this for you.. I was truly excited to see this movie..... especially with Julia Roberts....but .. all in all ... I think she'll always be.....a "Pretty Woman"  in my mind......

Aloha & A Hui Hou........ 

New discoveries.....

I have discovered ... but have always been interested in alternative medicine... but more importantly Chinese medicine... and becoming an herbalist..!! In these past days I have come to do some research... and have become very interested.  I started this research because our beloved Cocker Spaniel.. my boy "Thunder" has had a relapse... and had become extremely weak .. and lethargic.. the vet, who is an excellent vet practicing Western medicine said there was basically nothing more we could do.  I knew in my heart that .. that was what he was going to tell me... and I really want this special furry friend and family member

to have a wonderful life... soooooo with much prayer and positive thought...I decided to begin my research.. to see what else there was, alternatively to do for him.  I found out from friends and research.. that there is a Chinese herb called "yunnan baiyao" 

that helps in stopping internal bleeding in humans ... and in animals.  It comes in a capsule and/or powder form.  I was told to mix it with liquid, like chicken broth and give him an ounce every hour until he seemed to perk up..... I did just that.. every single hour from yesterday afternoon till this morning.... gave him a bit.. and this morning... although not completely and totally perky... Thunder is seeming to show definite signs of improvement!!!!  This stuff really smells weird.. and I can't imagine mixed with the chicken broth... that it would taste much better... but it is seeming to make a small but definite difference... !!!  I was very encouraged by this ... and am going to continue to give him this for a bit longer... not every hour now.. but a little at a time and hope and pray.. that our boy.. will continue with this positive progress.


So at this point... after speaking with this local herbalist... and she gave me no guarantees.. but at least I know I am trying everything possible...!!  I am actually now going to make an appointment for myself.. to see if she will be able to regulate these lovely hormones... and help me get back ... to my old normal condition and weight.... She seemed very encouraging and positive that she would be able to help me... with these types of herbs.. and also acupuncture ... which I am also very interested in.... 


I know this situation .. could easily turn around... but I am continuing to pray and keep my strong faith in God.. to help our beloved friend... 


Aloha & A Hui Hou!!!

Creative inspiration and then some.....

Now that I know that Abudaubi... is a REAL city... it sounds so very exotic...
I'm not sure if it was just the place or the culture, their beliefs... or all of the above..

 

I'm sure ... it is all of the above... but this also lends for great inspiration and imagination... as well...

Since the series and the movie "Sex in the City" I have been truly inspired by all of the characters of course... but my favorite being "Samatha Jones"

& of course

"Carrie Bradshaw"

Her writing career.. and the interesting and current things she writes about really do inspire me as I have mentioned probably too many times before.  It was really cool.. although I know it was "fictional" that they all, the great friends that they are traveled alone to such a place... and were able to enjoy such pampering!!  It was even fun to imagine being there yourself.... it was pretty awesome.  

There are so many movies that I've watched that are very inspirational.. to me ... I know that sounds really cheesy but... even movies like "Karate Kid"... the new version.. was a pretty inspiring story... although it is the same type of story... it still gives inspiration and sends a message.  A "never give up"... KEEP POSITIVE ... journey on message.... The strength ...control, discipline, drive pumps through your blood and thoughts... something I really need at this time in my life... I studied TaeKwoDo .. years back.. and really miss the concentration, discipline and centerness of my mind.  I was in my best shape ever then.. even at 8 months pregnant.. it was so much fun I never realized all the exercise I was doing!!!  Now.. that I'm way too overweight... with my blood pressure and probably cholesterol suffering each and every day... and both my knees being popped out with self care and recovery .. they sure are not what they used to be.  I'm at a crossroads... I cant keep going on this way.. I do the minimal here and there...  but not enough to make a difference during this menopausal time in my life.  I have the means to get back into my yoga practice and mix in the pilates.. after all I havent used this Total GYM as much

as I should have and my visits with Chuck and Christie have been minimal at best... so as one that I probably knows me the best tells me .. I just need to "suck it up, face EVERYTHING WITH A POSITIVE ATTITUDE"  and just do this thing......!!! Quit beating around the bush, making excuses ... and make the difference and DO IT!!!

"When life gets you down YOU make the choice to get back up again..!!" 

Aloha & A Hui Ho.............

What does it take...???

Okay people ... what does it take... ???  What does it take ... to get inspired .. to be enthusiastic... to be excited???  I know I'm a really creative person... but I really do hate these ruts I get it ... with lots of stuff in my life... exercise... dieting... staying in shape... writing... creating... 

So I decided to watch Sex in the City 2 for inspiration...!!  Although Carrie is just a character... but I really do like what she does... her writing career... her crazy fashions... and ideas...  

I'm waiting patiently for the inspiration to hit me... 

I have at least a half a dozen portraits I need to work on ... some more writing & blogging that I haven't been able to keep up with my promise to myself to keep up with this blogging habit... some creative sewing ... and for some reason... its just not hitting me... and I'm not liking it very much... 

Hopefully ... sometime soon... Until next time .. A Hui Ho!!

My Life has been a tapestry

My life has been a tapestry of rich and royal hue; An everlasting vision of the ever-changing view; A wond'rous woven magic in bits of blue and gold;A tapestry to feel and see, impossible to hold once amid the soft silver sadness in the sky, there came a man of fortune; a drifter passing by. He wore a torn and tattered cloth around his leathered hide and a coat of many colors; Yellow, green, on either side.  He moved with some uncertainty as if he didn't know just what he was there for or where he ought to go.  Once he reached for something  golden hanging from a tree and his hand came down emp-ty.  Soon within my tapestry,  along the rutted road, he sat down on a river rock and turned into a toad.  It seemed that he had fallen into someone's wicked spell and I wept to see him suffer, though I didn't know him well.  As I watched in sorrow,  there suddenly appeared a figure gray and ghostly beneath a flowing beard.  In times of deepest darkness I've seen him dressed in black.  Now my tapestry's unraveling;  He's come to take me back. He's come to take me back.

My Life has been a tapestry... I just love this ... it is TOTALLY ME.... and I love Carole King.. this album featured here... was my very first album given to me by my Aunt Linda... who is a singer/songwriter herself.  I memorized every single song on this album and still could sing each one, not very well mind you... but could still recite every word... this album and lyrics ALWAYS stuck with me... even after all these years... it was released in 1971...WOW.. the 70's... what a weird era...   what ever changing views we went through.  Similar to what we are going through right now... politically, relationally, fashionally (maybe not a word, but you get my point) ... I just wish I knew then ... what I know now... Haha... what a powerful statement... 

Which leads me to another direction... ever changing views... I really find it extremely amazing how some peoples views DO change... sometimes on command... or change radically.. from one direction or view to another without warning... not to be an extremist or anything...but its just amazing ... how people can profess to be so "perfect" but don't look at themselves and what they need to change.  More importantly... they refuse to remember and recognize whom they hurt in their past by their uncaring life choices.. a very sad affair.  

But I guess in conclusion we really can't change the past...  we can truly learn from our past mistakes... while....

 moving on to the future... I guess in thinking of all of this ... and trying to let go resentment and bitterness... I need to give all of this to God.. and leave it in God's Hand...


Aloha & A Hui Ho...

Once amid the soft silverSadness in the sky,There came a man of fortune;A drifter passing by.He wore a torn and tattered clothAround his leathered hideAnd a coat of many colors;Yellow, green, on either side.He moved with some uncertaintyAs if he didn't knowJust what he was there forOr where he ought to go.Once he reached for somethingGolden hanging from a treeAnd his hand came down emp-ty.Soon within my tapestry,Along the rutted road,He sat down on a river rockAnd turned into a toad.It seemed that he had fallenInto someone's wicked spellAnd I wept to see him suffer,Though I didn't know him well.As I watched in sorrow,There suddenly appearedA figure gray and ghostlyBeneath a flowing beard.In times of deepest darknessI've seen him dressed in black.Now my tapestry's unraveling;He's come to take me back.He's come to take me back.1EB435CD-8A29-4D14-ED6C-781A4B144C89

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Only on the internet...

Aloha ... I am seriously trying to keep blogging.. but it just seems that time gets away from us.... I can't believe its already NOVEMBER.....  where does the time go...????

So I was surfing the net ... a few days ago... and was taking in all the sites... still searching for more writing assignments... haha..!! but really I do love to write... and I stumbled upon... http://www.goodbonusguide.com a very interesting site... and lots of fun things to do sportsbook, casino, bingo, gambling.. etc. Even Live Dealer Casino !!! 

Although I had traveled to Vegas a couple of times... I loved the city... lights, shows.. and not to mention the SHOPPING!!!  So since the internet has now been my new playground... what more interesting avenue could there be than gambling ONLINE!! This was truly a world I had never explored.. so I decided to check it out... I started out with the article on each of the types of money making ideas (aka gambling)... the more I read the more I knew why people could acquire such addictions... without extreme self control...

The articles were truly informative and insightful... and tempting.  It really sounded like a lot of fun... if only I still had the disposable income I once had.  Don't get me wrong... the website... gives you tons of options.. to have the enjoyment of gambling in your jammies... but in this economy ... who are we kidding here.. 

So in conclusion... http://www.goodbonusguide.com 

truly provides quality and quantity in its info and opportunity ... you just have to have the "means" to join in...  It just proves to me again.. how truly powerful the internet is to us..it seems like no matter what you need or what you need to find and find out... the internet is definitely the place to go.. 

 Aloha & A Hui Ho..............