OMG.!!!!! I can't believe its September.....!!!!

Well I can't believe its September ALREADY and I haven't made any posts since August......... where does the time fly....??? It seems just like yesterday... we were ending a school year ... and now its almost Halloween.  Not to mention that its already 2pm today.... where DOES the time fly????  

And another thing...... why is it when you have a day off .. there is MORE WORK TO DO!  It almost seems that you go "into" work to rest and relax!!!  This is like a weird twist on things..for us, so to speak "stay at home Moms!" 

Don't get me wrong and I would 't trade lives with anyone... I love being there for my family..... cleaning, cooking, laundry, taxi driver, seamstress, organizer, juggler of schedules... listening to their stories, celebrating victories, and giving them a shoulder to cry on when their day doesn't work out like they planned.  I have just one question ...  even after 14 years ... I still haven't found any way to carve out "just a little" ME time..!! I really don't understand how these women who have more than one child actually find ANY time... to just hang out .. relax... read a book ... or even use the restroom without a ton of questions...!!!  I think its a "learned skill" rather than something thats awarded..!! 

They say you just have to "TAKE" it...!!  I guess I just have a hard time with that .... since all of my married life ..well ALL of my life .. I've always made sure that EVERYONE else had something scheduled, something fun to do and just plain someone to be with before I would schedule ANYTHING for myself.  I guess is always made me feel kind of selfish in a way.  But then there is always the other side of the coin... that I hear ALOT... that if you don't take care of yourself... then NO ONE WILL!!... So thats what I'm trying to do ... each day I try to do a couple things like writing or drawing in addition to practicing some yoga and meditation ... it seems to keep me a little more centered.....Its kind of funny though... the more time I have in a day off (off from the store) the less individual items I seem to get done!   It is certainly a frustrating situation to say the least.  It really takes alot of work and discipline to get on a real schedule to be able to accomplish this otherwise impossible act of self preservation.  Nighttime is soooo peaceful.. listening to the quietness of the evening noises.. knowing everyone is restfully sleeping... and this when my creative ideas start to run around in my head !!  I also really love to read... and have a ton of books on my list to devour but I have contracted a common ailment that when I sit down for too long my eye close before I even finish a chapter.!!  I have recently started another book by Esther and Jerry Hicks called The Astonishing Powers of Emotions: Let Your Feelings Be Your Guide.  It also comes with an audio CD ... which I have already downloaded and hope to listen to.  It really is very interesting!! I have many other books by these same authors .. and they are all very enlightening and informative.  I really love Hay House, Inc. as well .. You should check their website its loaded with tons of goodies.!!  I'm thinking my new book of interest will also shed some light in my own life.  

Well, now even after the little time I've spent here writing.. time has again flown by... and must get moving... sooo  hopefully this month will bring blogging to a normal routine.. so until next time A Hui Ho!! 

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Do you ever feel FAT ... like me (sometimes??)

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 I just picked up this book.... "Women Food and God" by Geneen Roth.. she was on the Oprah show recently .. she discusses women's compulsive eating issues... whether they are really hungry or not.. and really "Why do we eat??"  but somehow I felt drawn to read it.... as I eat my "diet" tuna sandwich...

 Do you ever just feel fat, ugly, undesirable, worthless???  I think there are probably ALOT OF PEOPLE... that feel this way from time to time... maybe even more times than they would like to admit.  Life, the media, magazines... tv, websites, you name it ... its all drawn on looking "perfect" or what THEY think looks perfect.... I mean was there every any "SKINNY" jeans when we went to school??  Lets face it... we all think about it ...we all have tried a diet or two or three... ??? Especially us "middle" aged women dealing with menopause, puberty and whats for dinner tonight???  This weight and FIT "thing" can get us ALL a little NUTS to say the least...  I guess I decided to write about this WEIGHT issue, because as of late... this WEIGHT thing sucks!!!  I had never ever had to worry about weight before ... until this time in my life and never realized how hard it is to focus and be disciplined when there are so many OTHER things going on in life... 

Like they say... " you would be surprised how much you can accomplish, when you put your mind to it...!!"


I've tried soooo many diets, pills, plans, gimmicks, routines and ideas..... I get so tired just thinking about it... but more frustrated when things don't work... sometimes I feel like a pin ball in a pin ball machine.. bouncing bouncing...bouncing ..from barrier to barrier only to get to another dead end..  I like and follow Weight Watchers which I truly believe to be the best REAL FOOD program...from all of my research... but I AM reading this book to see what the real connection is between Women, Food and God... I do have a strong faith.. but sometimes.. like any human being ... the negativity of the world looms over and is extreeeeeeemely overwhelming to say the least......

I know this in my heart... and I know I must continue to have FAITH........ I wish we knew what things will work and what won't ... but the fact still remains God is the ONLY ONE ... with the plan...  we must have FAITH..What does this really mean?? What is FAITH anyway..??  I guess I've heard it said best is "Faith is not believing that God can... its believing that HE WILL!!"  and I know YOU and I have FAITH.....  Have Faith... A Hui Ho!!

I know we're all here and we all have the experiences in our lives for a reason... some are wonderful experiences .. and then some.. well, not so wonderful...   Sometimes the things we go through in our lives... we continue to ask "why" ... why, are we going through this at this time.. why, can we not seem to get ahead... why, is there jealousy, resentment, hate, and discontent in this life.. in our lives..??? why why why???? I tend to ask myself this question alot... and I must admit.. I do get angry, frustrated and miserable.  Its very difficult to deal with these feelings.. but I always go back to "God is Good"... he does not make mistakes...sometimes I wonder just how much He thinks we can take... but I know in my heart I will get through things... but only with HIS guidance and direction....


Now I have been shown yet another path that I have already explored... but would love to really make a business of my own... and continue to... thrive..but also contribute to my family.  I do love my family very very much... but really have this yearning .. to be successful in my own interests.  I love my art ... and creative interests... but seem to be thrown back into the skincare/makeup thing continually in my life... selling my creative ideas and helping others feel great about themselves... is what I really thrive on I've found.. so by the end of this entry... I will be involved with MK .. once again!! or not... I really don't know..I was just reading yet another website.. The Pink Truth..which showed me a completely other perspective.. I do believe the Lord directed a new person in my life.. and resparked this interest... She is a thriving, full of life representative... that assured me that she can give me the training and direction I need... because she is of God's direction as well... but there is so much other information.. out there... that discourages me about this program.. which makes me soooo unsure... so again I am waiting for HIS direction... what to do ....... what to dooo.....!!!

Life gives us many twists and turns... and its alot like a roller coaster ride.... we all just have to hang on and have a deep seated faith in our God... HE is truly AWESOME.. so I am in constant prayer for direction and the ways and means to get things started again.. I know in my heart... I've been sent in this direction for His purpose.... Aloha!! & A Hui Ho... 

Okay...

Well "It's just my Take..."..but its just another day .... and finally going back to work... I have been off for the last four days... and it seems that I need to go to work to actually take a rest!!!  I enjoy doing all kinds of things on my days off .. mostly creative ideas..and tasks and it always seems that the actually keeping up the house/cleaning/cooking/DECIDING what to make for dinner... takes up more time than you think!!  I mean really its soooooooo  tiring !!!

But now not to change the subject .. but I'm soooo glad that school is back in session.. !!! Dont get me wrong I enjoy spending time with my daughter... but routine is soooo totally nice.

Okay... "Its just my take .. " but .. I found this AWESOME totally shopping website... called http://www.become.com!!  I am ALWAYS surfing the web to find ways to save.. and find interesting items and I totally stumbled upon this one!!  It totally compiles the BEST of everywhere!!!  This in turns saves you time and plenty of $$$ !!  There is also a wonderful local feature that all you have to do is plug in your zip code.. and it locates everything close to you saving you gas & money!!!  There are soooooo many things to check out .. I found this beautiful photo frame for under $5!!!  http://www.become.com/wire-photo-holder 

There are sooooo many options to shop for from canopy bed frames....http://www.become.com/canopy-bed-frame to computers, electronics, clothing, camera..to beautiful comforters http://www.home-and-garden.bcome.com/hotel-collection-comforter.... the sky is the limit!!!!  Amazing... its the kind of place you can spend an hour or spend the day and not even leave your bed!!!!  There is even a tab called "HOT PRODUCTS" that narrows things down to item, style, designer..

and it pretty much does the research for you!! I know it will save sooooo much time and money for all of you!!!! Especially with the holidays quickly approaching!!!!  There is also a totally AWESOME section on Health & Beauty that offers EVERYTHING from Cosmetics and skin care to fragrances, hair care, vision care.. and then even vitamins and supplements!!!  I wished I would have found this website earlier.  Living in Hawaii... sometimes our supplies are limited and we do ... do alot of online shopping so this website is a complete asset to ANYONE trying to save some money and limit their time running around town... Soooooo SHOP ON FRIENDS!!!!  and please let me know your thoughts.. when you guys check things out!!

Hope you guys have a great time surfing the web!!! and enjoy this new find... http://www.become.com !!!! A Hui Ho!!!!!!!!

Hawaii is a cooooooollll place!!

It's Just My Take.. but Hawaii is a coooolll place to be..

I must admit.. when we decided to move here almost five years ago now... (it was my idea) .. it was a pretty adventurous thought to say the least! I was living in Florida for most of my life.. and was caught up in the rush rush hussle bussle of life.. always going somewhere, lots of fun sporting events, shopping malls everywhere, programs, shows...it can be alot of craziness if you let it..we were always on the go.. don't get me wrong.. we had tons of fun.. it was just a "different" time in our lives. It was just then that we were losing sight of the real life, relaxing.. and actually taking the time to smell the roses.. It was just time for us to sit down ... take notice of things.. So we made the decision to move across country... like they say. We had visited and vacationed here lots of times.. and always enjoyed the wonderful weather.. ( while you guys are freezing back on the East Coast)...and the totally relaxing tropical atmosphere.. of these beautiful islands...!!! The Big Island... is truly BIG!! Although the Big Island has the most square footage.. it has less people ... than Honolulu... which is on the island of Oahu. There are also several other islands you can visit as well like Maui, Kaui, Lanai, Molokai.. Kahooholawe and Niihau these last two.. actually you can't even visit but they ARE listed on the map.. !!

Anyway, after packing everything up.. and loading it in a large metal container.. floating it two weeks plus across the ocean and then driving cross country hitting every pet motel on the way...getting our wonderful black Cocker Spaniel "Thunder" on the plane with us.. we finally arrived here on the Big Island !! and it is a truly beautiful place with wonderful ocean and mountain views..... the people are friendly and helpful.. and it was very easy to "fit in" so to speak.

  Generally moving to a whole other place in the country.. is quite a stressful experience for families, relationships and marriages.  It is listed as one of the top events in people's lives that contributes to divorce.  But I truly believe that if you have faith in God and your heart and soul is full of love and commitment to work together through thick and thin you'll grow and prosper and live an amazing life together.  Enjoy your day and life to day with positive prayers and thoughts!!  Aloha & A Hui Ho!!

Getting back on track....

Well I know its been awhile... and I apologize to my readers... although they may be few ... I know they are genuine. I just came back from almost a month vacation..I should have been blogging then.. so I could be able to release some tensions, worries and concerns.... and now it seems that things are more jumbled up and complicated than they were when I left.

We and above all ME.. needs to learn more to rely on my strong faith in God and His guidance through ALL of our life's circumstances... not just the negative ones. As soon as there is a situation that is turning negative or a really huge problems arises... we all run to the comfort of God in our lives. We need to trust in Him through ALL times... and remember that He is ALWAYS in charge.

So with that being said I am trusting and praying everyday... that He is going to guide us through this recovery time of our family's beloved "Thunder"... our black Cocker Spaniel... Just a week ago on July 21st was rushed in for an emergency splenectomy. They removed his spleen and a large growth that was taking up close to 30% of his little 33lb body. The biopsy of the spleen came back positive for this horrible ridiculous disgusting disease of cancer. All of his xrays and reviews came back clear before the surgery. But since there was cancer in his spleen there could have been some microscopic way of the disease getting into his body. I am trusting God to BEAT THESE odds and Thunder to have a full speedy recovery. Now to make things even MORE COMPLICATED.... just about 15 years ago TO THE DAY... our former black Cocker Spaniel.. "Norman" had the very same surgery... and removed another 5lb tumor...!!! Our doctor before... told us that he had never seen such a large tumor in such a small dog. This type of tumor or growth is usually more common in larger breeds such as German Shepards etc.... From my research and information so far... there is no way to prevent or understand why these growths form.. I guess just another freak of nature that cannot be explained!!! Now Norman lived for another 8 years... and lived a completely happy full life after the surgery. I am now on a quest to have Thunder live his full happy life as well. I am researching any NATURAL AND HOLISTIC remedies and or treatments to ensure his full and complete recovery. I just don't understand why with all the studies, educated specialists, doctors, research etc. that they have not been able to figure out a way to deal and destroy this terrible disease!!! or just be able to treat this disease without almost killing the patient to do it. It just doesnt make sense to me...!! I've heard some rumors that they are purposely avoiding a cure to be able to make more money on the current treatments etc. Although we dont know that this is just a rumor...I think thats just plain sick!!! So if anyone has any other "takes" on this disease, treatments etc... please feel free to contact me by comment or email etc... I will be anxious to hear from you...

Life is full of unexplained events, situations and circumstances... we all must remain trusting and confident in God to be there for all of us... not matter what!! So I am now "Getting back on track.." and hopefully back on the "blogging " track.. I do miss writing.. and am going to do my best to make my blogging part of my normal routine.. Thank you for listening and all of your POSITIVE THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS.. and promise to keep you posted and POSITIVE.... Aloha till the next time we meet...

I'm backkkkkk....

Well its almost been another month... not the schedule I intended to keep... "It's just my take... but... I didn't forget about my writing ... just seems that there is quite alot more happenings in my life these days... Honestly, I have been quite busy.. with "life"...but I have managed to complete a couple of portraits... and you can see ... hmmmm.. Meet my new friends "Fred" on the left... and "Duke" on the right!!! I now have several portraits that I need to start production on... I JUST LOVE ANIMALS... Like I always tell people... "Pets are just humans with fur coats!!!" I'm not giving up on this creative side of my life... drawing, writing ... etc. It's what keeps me connected to my inner desires. You see I am always creating in my mind...and when the desire and inspiration hits me ... I HAVE TO ACT... almost immediately!! I guess thats an artist thing...its just how it works with me...I always have a pad of paper, pen and pencils, my laptop and a good book.. by my nightstand... so I am completely ready when I get the required inspiration. I think thats probably why I havent gotten into the big bucks just yet with my creations... "It's all good though.. I really do love to draw, paint, needlework, organize, design.. its just in my blood. Blogging has become another new creative outlet... and I love reading all my creative colleague's blogs and writings as well. You just never know... when it will be "your time!"

I believe I have truly been blessed my talents, my wonderful supportive and even getting more supportive... family... good health and great friends new and old. Life is truly what you make it.. and I don't plan on missing a beat.. I have also been truly blessed by many inspirational people in my life... they are very creative, colorful and extremely talented people that I am very thankful for touching my life. I have recently found out that a very dear and truly inspirational friend, amongst so many people out there, has been diagnosed with the relentless and random disease of cancer. It really hit me like a nothing I have ever experienced. I continue to pray and send positive energies their way ... in hopes of remission... and haulting of this terrible condition. I think of all the wonderful crazy times we spent together... sharing, laughing and crying... and I know in my heart POSITIVELY... that we will AGAIN be able to spend more time together in the future with God's healing and blessings.

With that being said I will conclude in professing and telling ALL of you... to LIVE EACH OF YOUR DAYS TO THEIR FULLEST POTENTIAL.... take a chance, BE CREATIVE... try something new ... learn something new... GO OUT OF THE BOX!!! Be kind, enjoy and share each other's experiences..and above love one another ... Like Oprah says "Live your Best Life!!
Aloha.......