Do you ever feel FAT ... like me (sometimes??)

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 I just picked up this book.... "Women Food and God" by Geneen Roth.. she was on the Oprah show recently .. she discusses women's compulsive eating issues... whether they are really hungry or not.. and really "Why do we eat??"  but somehow I felt drawn to read it.... as I eat my "diet" tuna sandwich...

 Do you ever just feel fat, ugly, undesirable, worthless???  I think there are probably ALOT OF PEOPLE... that feel this way from time to time... maybe even more times than they would like to admit.  Life, the media, magazines... tv, websites, you name it ... its all drawn on looking "perfect" or what THEY think looks perfect.... I mean was there every any "SKINNY" jeans when we went to school??  Lets face it... we all think about it ...we all have tried a diet or two or three... ??? Especially us "middle" aged women dealing with menopause, puberty and whats for dinner tonight???  This weight and FIT "thing" can get us ALL a little NUTS to say the least...  I guess I decided to write about this WEIGHT issue, because as of late... this WEIGHT thing sucks!!!  I had never ever had to worry about weight before ... until this time in my life and never realized how hard it is to focus and be disciplined when there are so many OTHER things going on in life... 

Like they say... " you would be surprised how much you can accomplish, when you put your mind to it...!!"


I've tried soooo many diets, pills, plans, gimmicks, routines and ideas..... I get so tired just thinking about it... but more frustrated when things don't work... sometimes I feel like a pin ball in a pin ball machine.. bouncing bouncing...bouncing ..from barrier to barrier only to get to another dead end..  I like and follow Weight Watchers which I truly believe to be the best REAL FOOD program...from all of my research... but I AM reading this book to see what the real connection is between Women, Food and God... I do have a strong faith.. but sometimes.. like any human being ... the negativity of the world looms over and is extreeeeeeemely overwhelming to say the least......

I know this in my heart... and I know I must continue to have FAITH........ I wish we knew what things will work and what won't ... but the fact still remains God is the ONLY ONE ... with the plan...  we must have FAITH..What does this really mean?? What is FAITH anyway..??  I guess I've heard it said best is "Faith is not believing that God can... its believing that HE WILL!!"  and I know YOU and I have FAITH.....  Have Faith... A Hui Ho!!

I know we're all here and we all have the experiences in our lives for a reason... some are wonderful experiences .. and then some.. well, not so wonderful...   Sometimes the things we go through in our lives... we continue to ask "why" ... why, are we going through this at this time.. why, can we not seem to get ahead... why, is there jealousy, resentment, hate, and discontent in this life.. in our lives..??? why why why???? I tend to ask myself this question alot... and I must admit.. I do get angry, frustrated and miserable.  Its very difficult to deal with these feelings.. but I always go back to "God is Good"... he does not make mistakes...sometimes I wonder just how much He thinks we can take... but I know in my heart I will get through things... but only with HIS guidance and direction....


Now I have been shown yet another path that I have already explored... but would love to really make a business of my own... and continue to... thrive..but also contribute to my family.  I do love my family very very much... but really have this yearning .. to be successful in my own interests.  I love my art ... and creative interests... but seem to be thrown back into the skincare/makeup thing continually in my life... selling my creative ideas and helping others feel great about themselves... is what I really thrive on I've found.. so by the end of this entry... I will be involved with MK .. once again!! or not... I really don't know..I was just reading yet another website.. The Pink Truth..which showed me a completely other perspective.. I do believe the Lord directed a new person in my life.. and resparked this interest... She is a thriving, full of life representative... that assured me that she can give me the training and direction I need... because she is of God's direction as well... but there is so much other information.. out there... that discourages me about this program.. which makes me soooo unsure... so again I am waiting for HIS direction... what to do ....... what to dooo.....!!!

Life gives us many twists and turns... and its alot like a roller coaster ride.... we all just have to hang on and have a deep seated faith in our God... HE is truly AWESOME.. so I am in constant prayer for direction and the ways and means to get things started again.. I know in my heart... I've been sent in this direction for His purpose.... Aloha!! & A Hui Ho... 

Okay...

Well "It's just my Take..."..but its just another day .... and finally going back to work... I have been off for the last four days... and it seems that I need to go to work to actually take a rest!!!  I enjoy doing all kinds of things on my days off .. mostly creative ideas..and tasks and it always seems that the actually keeping up the house/cleaning/cooking/DECIDING what to make for dinner... takes up more time than you think!!  I mean really its soooooooo  tiring !!!

But now not to change the subject .. but I'm soooo glad that school is back in session.. !!! Dont get me wrong I enjoy spending time with my daughter... but routine is soooo totally nice.

Okay... "Its just my take .. " but .. I found this AWESOME totally shopping website... called http://www.become.com!!  I am ALWAYS surfing the web to find ways to save.. and find interesting items and I totally stumbled upon this one!!  It totally compiles the BEST of everywhere!!!  This in turns saves you time and plenty of $$$ !!  There is also a wonderful local feature that all you have to do is plug in your zip code.. and it locates everything close to you saving you gas & money!!!  There are soooooo many things to check out .. I found this beautiful photo frame for under $5!!!  http://www.become.com/wire-photo-holder 

There are sooooo many options to shop for from canopy bed frames....http://www.become.com/canopy-bed-frame to computers, electronics, clothing, camera..to beautiful comforters http://www.home-and-garden.bcome.com/hotel-collection-comforter.... the sky is the limit!!!!  Amazing... its the kind of place you can spend an hour or spend the day and not even leave your bed!!!!  There is even a tab called "HOT PRODUCTS" that narrows things down to item, style, designer..

and it pretty much does the research for you!! I know it will save sooooo much time and money for all of you!!!! Especially with the holidays quickly approaching!!!!  There is also a totally AWESOME section on Health & Beauty that offers EVERYTHING from Cosmetics and skin care to fragrances, hair care, vision care.. and then even vitamins and supplements!!!  I wished I would have found this website earlier.  Living in Hawaii... sometimes our supplies are limited and we do ... do alot of online shopping so this website is a complete asset to ANYONE trying to save some money and limit their time running around town... Soooooo SHOP ON FRIENDS!!!!  and please let me know your thoughts.. when you guys check things out!!

Hope you guys have a great time surfing the web!!! and enjoy this new find... http://www.become.com !!!! A Hui Ho!!!!!!!!

Hawaii is a cooooooollll place!!

It's Just My Take.. but Hawaii is a coooolll place to be..

I must admit.. when we decided to move here almost five years ago now... (it was my idea) .. it was a pretty adventurous thought to say the least! I was living in Florida for most of my life.. and was caught up in the rush rush hussle bussle of life.. always going somewhere, lots of fun sporting events, shopping malls everywhere, programs, shows...it can be alot of craziness if you let it..we were always on the go.. don't get me wrong.. we had tons of fun.. it was just a "different" time in our lives. It was just then that we were losing sight of the real life, relaxing.. and actually taking the time to smell the roses.. It was just time for us to sit down ... take notice of things.. So we made the decision to move across country... like they say. We had visited and vacationed here lots of times.. and always enjoyed the wonderful weather.. ( while you guys are freezing back on the East Coast)...and the totally relaxing tropical atmosphere.. of these beautiful islands...!!! The Big Island... is truly BIG!! Although the Big Island has the most square footage.. it has less people ... than Honolulu... which is on the island of Oahu. There are also several other islands you can visit as well like Maui, Kaui, Lanai, Molokai.. Kahooholawe and Niihau these last two.. actually you can't even visit but they ARE listed on the map.. !!

Anyway, after packing everything up.. and loading it in a large metal container.. floating it two weeks plus across the ocean and then driving cross country hitting every pet motel on the way...getting our wonderful black Cocker Spaniel "Thunder" on the plane with us.. we finally arrived here on the Big Island !! and it is a truly beautiful place with wonderful ocean and mountain views..... the people are friendly and helpful.. and it was very easy to "fit in" so to speak.

  Generally moving to a whole other place in the country.. is quite a stressful experience for families, relationships and marriages.  It is listed as one of the top events in people's lives that contributes to divorce.  But I truly believe that if you have faith in God and your heart and soul is full of love and commitment to work together through thick and thin you'll grow and prosper and live an amazing life together.  Enjoy your day and life to day with positive prayers and thoughts!!  Aloha & A Hui Ho!!